Saturday, August 29, 2009

Men love Birthdays

L will be entering 2ND grade this year and she has really developed into a good reader. I am very glad to say that she can read print but still has a hard time with reading cursive. I will explain the reason why.

My sister came to visit us. We all went to pick her up at the airport and put her bag in the trunk, she sat between L and M and put her purse on the floor. Inside her purse she brought a book she had been reading on the plane. We were catching up when L asked the following.

L: excuse me mommy

Me: yes Lulu

L: Why do men love Birthdays?

Me: ummmm... I don't know, why? (I thought it was a joke)

L: I don't now mommy I'm asking you because Tia (aunt in Spanish) has this book and look it says (while pointing on the words) why do men love birthdays?

My sister and I simultaneously tried to grab the book and move it away from L, because as you can guess the book did not say why do men love birthdays, the books title was actuality "Why do men love bitches?" ... All I can say is thank God for my soon to be 2ND graders inability to read cursive.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

goofy questions

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:20am

2. How do you like your steak? medium well(closer to well done than to medium rare)

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Ice Age Dawn of the Dinosaurs

4. What is your favorite TV show? right now its "Drop Dead Diva"

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Tuscany, Italy

6. What did you have for breakfast? Coffee with 2 Oreo cookies.

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Italian

8. What foods do you dislike? pig feet

9. Favorite Place to Eat? home

10. Favorite dressing? I don't use dressing I just put extra virgin olive oil, balsamic vinegar, salt and pepper directly on my salad and toss.

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Toyota Rav-4

12. What are your favorite clothes? simple dress

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Alaska

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? I really want to be 1/2 full but if I'm honest I'm usually 1/2 empty.

15. Where would you want to retire? I think I want to stay wherever I lived and just travel a lot.

16. Favorite time of day? morning

17. Where were you born? Havana, Cuba

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? none

19. How many tattoos do you have? none

20. What is your favorite color? blue

21. Coffee Drinker? absolutely

22. Bird watcher? nope

23. Are you a morning person or a night person? depends it varies greatly

24. Do you have any pets? 2 aquatic frogs (not my idea)

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I am sharing a CSA with a great friend and today was my first day at the farm, I loved it!

26. What did you want to be when you were little? a pediatrician

27. What is your best childhood memory? bike riding with my family at the park

29. Are you married? yes

30. Always wear your seat belt? yes

31. Been in a car accident? yes

32. Any pet peeves? yes, when I'm driving and turn on the blinker to switch lanes and the car next to me speeds up.

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? pineapple and ham

34. Favorite Flower? tulips

35. Favorite ice cream? chocolate chocolate almond

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? panera (not sure if its considered fast food)

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? none, I passed first try =)

38. From whom did you get your last email? Shan

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? banana republic

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? nope

41. Like your job? yes, I wouldn't change it for anything.

42. Broccoli? love it.

43. What was your favorite vacation? I haven't had a real vacation but I am looking forward to one soon.

44. Last person you went out to dinner with? my hubby

45. What are you listening to right now? my kids talking

Monday, August 24, 2009

Monday morning

I am sitting in front of the tv with a cup of coffe and watching Ni Hao, Kai-lan with L and M. A lot of people dont like Mondays but I happen to love them.

I get why Mondays suck for some people, the weekend is over and its back to work etc, but for me weekends are usually taken like every other day.

As a housewife I dont really get a break from my "work" and with Dr.D's nutty schedule it is more often than not that I spend weekends without him. By the time Monday rolls around I am more than ready for it.

The start of a new week symbolizes a new possibility, a chance to change things and make a difference.

This week I want to work on my patience.

I think it would be good for the entire family if mommy was more patient.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Board exams

Dr.D will be taking his internal med board exam next week and he is so stressed out. Usually people dedicate a lot of time to studying for the exam but since he started his ID fellowship the day after he finished the internal medicine residency he didn't get any free time to study. It also doesn't help that the fellowship has been extremely hectic, he has basically been able to dedicate 1 hour a day to study and I'm being generous (however,he has been hearing lectures on his commute which is 2 hours a day). Last night we came up with a plan for him to try to cram in as many questions as possible during this last week. The plan will be hard on all parties involved (hubby-girls-and me). As soon as he gets home sometime between 6pm and 7pm, he will have dinner and go straight to sleep. He will sleep for 7 hours (meaning he will be waking up between 2am or 3am) and then study for a few hours until he has to get ready for work. He has the upcoming weekend free and again he will do the same thing, only instead of studying for a couple of hours he will do 2 practice test (questions for 8 hours straight).
I really hope this helps, because it is really important.

Friday, August 14, 2009

3's about me

Three names I go by:

1. mama
2. mommy
3. mom

Three jobs I've had in my life:

1. Customer Service Rep
2. Office Manager
3. SAHM <----- most difficult but also most rewarding

Three places I've lived

1. Princeton, NJ
2. Mia, FL
3. Havana, Cuba

Favorite TV shows:
1. Drop Dead Diva
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Secret Life of the American Teenager

Places I've been

1. Baltimore, MD
2. Orlando, FL
3. Springfield, IL


People who e-mail me regularly

1. Shan
2. Hubby
3. Dad

Three of my favorite foods

1. Shrimp
2. Chocolate Ice Cream
3. French Onion Soup

Things I'm looking forward to

1. Manicure/Pedicure
2. Vacation
3. End of fellowship in 2011

not so joyful moment

I have said before that the fellowship so far has been tough. In the last week the hubby has gotten home really late every night, barely making it in the door before the girls go to sleep. This morning he gave the girls a kiss before leaving and when he kissed M she woke up. Looking at her Dad dressed for work, she immediately grabbed on to him and began to cry. He carried her walking around the room and she kept repeating "please don't go, I miss you so much" OMG it was heartbreaking. He explained to her that he didn't have to go to work on Saturday and Sunday and that he would spend the entire weekend with us, but there was no consoling her she just kept crying and repeating that she wanted him to stay. Eventually I carried her and tried to calm her down by being silly and he was able to leave.

I complain about him being away so much because in all honestly, it sucks! However, its easier for me because I understand why he is doing it and I know that it isn't his fault to have that schedule, its the job he chose and it all comes with the territory. I feel bad that I don't take a step back more often and see how it affects the girls. Because well obviously it does and a lot more than we thought. Ever so often they make a comment about it, but it had never really been as bad as this morning.

The life of a Doctors family is difficult. It doesn't matter if some day in the future, when training is over, we can make a good living. Money doesn't buy time and for me time is one of the most valuable things in the world.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Family dinner is making me fat

I love the concept of eating dinner as a family. During Dr.D's residency we ate dinner with the girls at 5:30 every night (unless he was on call, on those nights I ate with the girls and he ate at the hospital). It has gotten challenging during fellowship to continue family dinners, because of his hectic schedule and the hour drive home. However, we have been trying to keep it up, the problem is that we are eating dinner around 7:30pm! Which is really not good, at all. Since the beginning of fellowship I have gained a good 5lbs. I blame it on having dinner so late and not only on that, its also the fact that by 5:30 I get so hungry that I have to add an extra "snack" that otherwise I wouldn't be having. I am not sure how long this is going to work for, but for now we really are trying.
(please excuse me as I unbutton my pants)

Monday, August 10, 2009

tough weekends

This is something puzzling to me, even though I spend the entire week alone with the girls, spending the weekends alone really bug me.
During the week I take them out with no problem, but getting them and myself ready and out of the house on either Saturday or Sunday is absolute torture.
I think its because it seems normal that on the weekdays the husband is out of the house working but weekends are "supposed" to be family time.

Therefore I usually spend the weekend at home and by the time Monday comes around we are all a little stir crazy. Just came online to check my email and write this and then off to the park we go!

*thankfully the hubby is not on call this weekend
(he has to study for the board, but at least he will be home!)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Funny little one

Yesterday I was driving home from Chuck E. Cheese and M said to me:

M: Mommy I need you to always be with me!

Me: Ok, but why?

M: Because sometimes Papa doesn't listen to me.

Me: Well, you can ask him to please listen.

M: No mommy I cant!

Me: Why not?

M: Because I'm his kid he doesn't have to listen to me, but he has to listen to you. Dad's always have to listen to there mom's and to their wives.

Me:(laughing quietly)Yup, your right they sure do...

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Busy Busy Busy

I need to find a way to add things to my day. I know that taking into account that I take care of the girls and do everything in the house, adding more sounds a little crazy but the truth is I miss him (Dr.D).
Our life together has not been a piece of cake but everytime that "supposedly" it will start to get better turns out that schedule wise its a little harder.
When he was doing the residency the hospital was 10 minutes away from home but now that he started fellowship its about 1 hour away from home. That commute really makes a difference plus now when he is on call it comes in sets Saturday and Sunday so basically he leaves to work in the early am and comes home in the late pm and I am "on call" at home 19 days straight. (he had 2 calls in a roll this month). I hate to whine but its basically what im doing, right?
Ok let me try some positives to make me feel better and stop sounding like a whiner.
(I always tell L and M that wont get them anywhere)

We are healthy
We love eachother
L is coming home in 2 weeks
I get to stay home and take care of my girls
I just took all his "work shirts" to the dry cleaner (one less chore for me!)
I have great friends
We are blessed!
God is good!

You know typing those things really help....

Ok, off I go to plan something to do with M today....

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Our trip to Baltimore

We had a great time in Baltimore. Dr.D really enjoyed the ID course and M and I had fun exploring Baltimore. We had a blast in the inner harbor and got in one of the Dragon Pedal Boats.

M loved staying in a hotel, the last time she was in a hotel she was really small so I don't think she remembered and boy was she excited. She couldn't believe there was a bathroom and as soon as she saw it (which was on Monday at 10pm when we arrived at the hotel) she begged us to take a shower, because she has never showered in a hotel, so we let her and she was overjoyed.

We ate in a Brazilian restaurant and it was amazing (Fogo de Chao), they had a Parmesan crusted pork that was really good I keep googling a recipe for it but I have yet to come across one that sounds similar to what I tasted.

We also tried to find the "best" Crab Cake in Baltimore and after asking around they directed us to G & M, unfortunately we weren't impressed and I actually didn't think it was good at all.

It was fun, but Thursday night when we arrived home it felt so good to be back!

Monday, July 6, 2009

The start of a new Era

So the fellowship started July 1 and Dr.D came home with his new schedule and responsibilities and all my hopes for more time were chattered into tiny pieces. It appears he will be busier than he was in Residency and when you factor in that he is commuting one hour each way... well you get the picture.

However I cant complain about this week because he has to go to Baltimore, MD for 4 days and I am tagging along with M. I wont get to be with him during the day, but he gets out at 4pm so we will have time in the late afternoons and I will get to spend the day with M, exploring whatever there is to do in Maryland!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Summer

Summer is here, I have a love/hate relationship with Summer. L goes away for 6 weeks during the Summer and it leaves a bitter taste to Summmer. I enjoy the warm weather, the fresh fruit, the fireworks as we approach the 4th of July but it isnt the same without her around. Its also hard for M which in her words "she cant live without her big sister". L has been gone for 10 days and we already miss her terribly, but as I tell M (and constantly remind myself) 10 days have already passed, so that means that we are closer to her coming home than when we started counting.
We cant wait until August 2!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Residency Graduation



Last Friday June 19 was Dr.D's graduation from Internal Med residency. I can't believe how quickly 3 years passed. Where they hard? absolutely! Was it worth it? Oh yeah! I was so proud to see Dr.D go up and get his awards (4! but who's counting)and watch how happy and fullfilled he felt. Getting to listen to what I already knew (how awesome he is!) from the people he works with was so great.
Geesh talk about bragging! I am not trying to, I swear, I am just honestly from the bottom of my heart so happy and proud of him!

Congrats babe we did it!!!!



Now on to the next journey: Fellowship!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays-Art

My little artist at work



Note:
M is having her 6 month post op MRI/MRA (more info on why) on Friday June 12 at 9am, please keep her in your prayers.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Hectic

The next 2 weeks of weeks are going to be hectic, or better said more hectic that usual.

Tomorrow L has to go the dentist to get 2 cavities filled on one side

This Friday my sister is coming to visit, it will be a short visit :( but sweet :)

On Sunday May 31 Dr.D starts yet another week of night float.

On Tuesday June 2 L has to go back to the dentist to get 1 cavity on the other side filled.

On Wednesday June 3 my parents come to visit us for a week :)

My parents leave on June 9, after dropping them off at the airport we need to hurry back to L's school for her end of school carnival.

On June 12 M has her 6 month post-op MRI/MRA (see moyamoya)to make sure everything is fine, I have faith in God that it will be (please keep her in your prayers).

I need a vacation!

Friday, May 22, 2009

Fashion Friday

Here is M's choice:







Fashion Friday is hosted by M3 at salsa in china

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Washing the portable DVD

I went with Dr.D to the hospital where he will start his ID fellowship next month, its about an hour away from home so I grabbed the portable DVD, that way M could watch a movie on the way and not be bored. Dr.D started driving and I kept trying to turn the DVD on but it wouldn't work. I had charged it for 2 hours in the morning, so I knew it had to have battery power. At a red light Dr.D grabbed it and he tried to turn it on convinced that I wasn't doing it right, but he didn't have any luck either. I turned to M who had been surprisingly patient waiting and said:

Me: I am sorry baby but it doesn't seem to be working.
M: Is it because I put all my water in it?
Me:(trying to stay calm)Why would you put water in your DVD player?
M: It was really dirty and I wanted to wash it, so it could be nice and clean.
Me: Your not supposed to do that!
M: I am really sorry mommy, I didn't know.

It all sounded so logical in her mind. It was dirty, so what do you do when something is dirty? you wash it... Sigh.... We no longer have a portable DVD player.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Mothers Day

Since I wasn't online during Mothers day I didn't get a chance to post about my day. I was registered for a 5k on Mothers day so we got up early and woke up the girls, who gave me there presents, I got earrings from everyone and then L gave me 2 cards and a poem she had made at school and M had made me a number of cards over the last week but she didn't know where they were so when I asked her she said " silly goose those are for next mothers day" it was so cute and funny (later on she found them and gave them to me). We arrived at the 5k around 7:30am and the race started at 8:15. Dr.D stayed with the girls in a children's tent they had set up with a concert, face painting and animal balloons. I finished the race in 35 minutes and 30 seconds and I am really happy with my outcome, especially since I only began "running" for the first time at the beginning of March. After the race we walked around and gave the girls some additional time in the tent and my friend Shanwhic h was also in the race and her son (whom M plans on marrying, lol) met up with us, it was a lot of fun. Next we went out to lunch (cheese steaks, yum!) and then came home. Dr.D and M took a nap and L and I watched a movie, after the movie we went to Marshall's to buy her some shoes for a dress she wanted to wear. Around 4pm we went over a friends house for a Mothers day get together. It was a really nice Mothers day. Happy belated Mothers day to all the mommies out there!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

No potty break

I was just thinking about this. If you are a stay at home mom you dont even get a bathroom break. I cant think of another job in which you would not be able to get privacy while you use the bathroom.

Monday, May 4, 2009

ABC's of "ME"

A - Age:25
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Cleaning bathroom
D - Dog's name: No dog's
E - Essential start your day item: My morning cup of coffee
F - Favorite color: Blue
G - Gold or Silver: Gold
H - Height: 5'5
I - Instruments you play: None
J – Job: CEO of the house
K - Kids: L and M
L - Living arrangements: Married w/children in an apartment
M - Mom's name: Mami
N - Nicknames: Dont really have one
O - Overnight hospital stay other than births: None
P - Pet Peeve: lying
Q - Quote from a movie: The being in love is better than the falling in love.
R - Right or left handed: left
S - Siblings: 2 sisters both younger
T - Time you wake up: usually 6am
U - Underwear: Victoria Secret
V - Vegetable you dislike: I haven't met a veggie I didn't like
W – Ways you run late: running back inside to get my phone
X - X-rays you've had: dental, knee, lungs, too many!
Y - Yesterday's best moment: Listening to L and M talking about the Mothers day cards they were making for Mommy
Z - Zoo favorite: tiger

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Fortune Teller

Today L made one of those paper fortune tellers, the ones where you fold the paper into triangles. She was really excited to try it out on her first "customer" M. L instructed M to choose a color, she chose pink and then she chose the number 4. L opened up the flap to reveal her fortune which read "you are really pretty". M had a surprised look on her face and put her hand slightly over her mouth saying "L you are right I am pretty".
Love it!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Meal Plan Mon-Fri

Monday May 4

Sundays left overs (it will just be the girls and me because Dr.D is on call)
Chicken Stew and Rice with fried Plantains

Tuesday May 5

Palomilla Steak, Rice and Black Beans with an Avocado Salad

Wednesday May 6

Hot Dogs and Salad (just the girls and me again)

Thursday May 7

Spanish Tortilla, Lentils and Rice

Friday May 8

Home made pizza (just the girls and me again)

*On the nights when Dr.D is on call I usually try to make something fun and simple.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Thankful Thursdays

I am thankful today for my husband choosing Infectious Disease specialty instead of Neurosurgery, which was his original plan, since its what he had been doing in our country before he came to the US and had to start from scratch. I have gotten a little taste of what that would have been like this week and will continue to for the next 3 weeks because he is doing an elective in Neurosurgery. He has been in the OR and hasn't been able to answer if I call and has had to stay later at the hospital longer than expected due to a surgery. By no means do I think that our schedule is great but I think that if he would have chosen Neurosurgery it would be 5X worse. So on this "Thankful Thursday" I am thankful for my ID physician to be...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays Swimming Dog

On Sunday when we were leaving the beach, on our way back to the car, we saw a dog jump to the water and then the owners put down a ladder to let him climb back up. It was obvious that he did this often and it was really amusing to us. Especially the girls.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Un-bitting the bullet

Update: I think the budget fairy was watching out for me and I took it as a sign. I went to Starbucks (which had like a million of them on Sunday) and they were sold out. No yummy fancy coffee for me.

Turned out to be a really good thing because when I took my car for an oil change today, they notified me that I needed new breaks and boy was I thankful that I didn't splurge on that machine yesterday.

Monday, April 27, 2009

I am going to bite the bullet

My parents bought me a really nice esppresso machine from Starbucks 3 years ago, a few month ago, while I was cleaning it, I pulled a tube and it broke. I was so upset about it, but decided against buying a new one. However this weekend we went to Starbucks and I saw one on sale. Its still pretty pricey but I figured that I am spending a lot of money going into Starbucks for coffee instead of having some at home. So after careful consideration I am going to march myself into Starbucks today and "invest" in a new espresso machine. I can't wait!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Our day today

Today has been a gorgeous, in the high 80's. Dr.D was on call today and the girls and I took him some Starbucks coffee to get him through the day. After lunch I went outside with the girls thinking we would be outside all day but they are such girly girls, we didn't make it one hour outside because of the bugs and bee's. Its so funny because bugs kept landing on top of M's dress and she would come over to me screaming and asking me to take it off and I would scream (louder than she was)and with my phone try to swing it off, anyone watching us must have gotten a good laugh. We came back inside the house and the girls played in there room while I cleaned the house. We watched a Scooby Doo Movie together and then I prepared dinner (spaghetti with ground beef) and we ate. The girls wanted ice cream for desert, so we took an after dinner walk to Wholefoods and picked up ice cream. As I write this they are having ice cream with brownie and watching The Lion King part 2 Simba's Pride (lucky girls). As for me, I am off to join them :)

Friday, April 24, 2009

Fashion Friday

M decided on a pink dress and green pants with pink chicks on them.











She insisted on accessorizing with this pineapple.


Fashion Friday is hosted by M3 at salsa in china.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Thankful Thursdays

I am thankful for being able to go out on a much needed date tonight.The babysitter will be here at 6:30 PM and I will meet Dr.D around 6:45pm for dinner. We still don't know where we will eat but that doesn't really matter, besides there's a ton of little restaurants around, so I'm sure it wont be difficult to choose. Im so excited, I cant wait...

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays Shoes

M at 14 month.



Something tells me she will someday only walk around in stilettos.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Just another Monday

I used to be more of a "morning person", but now mornings are just way too hectic. Without a doubt Monday mornings are the craziest. Today L had to take coins to school, which of course I forgot all about until 8am (30 minutes before we had to run out the door). I searched everywhere around the house and gathered almost all the ones I needed. I had 25 pennies - 4 quarters - 20 dimes, but I only had 17 nickles, therefore 3 were missing. I figured I would probably have 3 nickles in the car, so I told L to put the bag of coins in her back pack while I packed her lunch and we headed out the door. When we got to school, as I waited in the line of cars, I found the 3 nickles and told L to put them with the other coins. That's when she told me "Mommy I cant because the bag isn't in my back pack, its at home". Initially I told her "ok well you tell the teacher you left them at home", but then I remembered how embarrassing it was when that happened to me, so I got out of the line of cars and drove back home, ran inside grabbed the bag and then drove back to school making it just in time for her to not be late. Hectic yes! but so worth it, right before getting to school L told me "mommy you are such a good mom thank you for going back home, I love you"

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Perfect Sunday

Dr.D was home and that just makes the day a lot nicer as is, but it really was a great Sunday. We gave the girls breakfast and we went on a bike ride. When we got back showered, got dressed, and walked to wholefoods and picked up just enough groceries to comfortably carry them home. We ate lunch, watched a movie, and then spent the rest of the day just hanging around the house. Dr.D and I played poker while we waited for dinner to be ready (I made lamb, rice and lentils). When we were done eating the girls and I baked a chocolate cake, which we enjoyed with ice cream right after singing happy birthday to Dora with a pink candle because M insisted that it was her birthday. It was a perfectly lazy Sunday.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Runny Nose Changes Plans

Today we were supposed to go to a birthday party for adorable twins turning one, however we had to cancel because M is sick with a cold. The girls were really sad that we couldn't go. L kept asking me if M was all better from the moment she woke up until around 1pm when I told her that even if M would have been feeling better we couldn't go because the party was already over. M's cold started on Thursday night she had a runny nose before going to bed and then around midnight she woke up crying with a stuffy nose and running a fever. On Friday we took her to the pediatrician just to be on the safe side and he said its just a cold, so we have to let it run its course. We went out for a short walk in the late afternoon because the weather was gorgeous. Dr.D ended up carrying M so the walk didn't last long, but it was nice while it lasted. Hopefully tomorrow M is feeling better and we can enjoy this weather, which I had been totally craving.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Fashion Friday: Taking it back in time.

Here is L's fashion sense at age 4.





Fashion friday hosted by M3 at Salsa in China.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Thankful Thursdays

Every night before dinner we all hold hands and say what we are thankful for. It usually takes 2 minutes. M goes first and she usually says " I am thankful for mama making this delicious food" L follows by saying " I'm thankful for mama making this delicious food and for all of us being healthy" and then Dr.D and I usually say just about the same thing " We are thankful for being able to enjoy this food together and for our health and happiness".
Depending on the day we get more elaborate, but even when its just those simple things, it is so nice to take a moment and acknowledge that everyday there are things to be thankful for.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays

What could possible be sweeter?



Absolutely nothing!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Weather please cooperate

Its April and I had all these beautiful plans of dropping L off at school and instead of getting in the car line and having her jump off the car, I would park as far as possible and have a little morning walk with the girls. I also thought that afterwards I would stop by Starbucks and get myself a java chip frappuccino and head over to the park with M. Mother nature obviously had other plans because it has been too cold, way too cold for a frappuccino (I have had to settle for an extra hot mocha)and too cold for walks and parks (instead you will find me walking around the mall or in the bookstore). Mother nature I want nice weather! Please... Pretty Please... With A Cherry On Top...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter

I have had a great Easter Sunday. We were able to sleep in until 9am which in a household with small children is a luxury and I was able to spend the day with my favorite people in the world: Dr.D, L and M. I had a talk with the girls about the meaning of Easter and at the end of our conversation (just when I thought they understood everything) they said mommy I get it, Jesus is alive so he makes egg hunts for us and he tells the Easter bunny to bring us baskets. I don't think they quite got it, maybe next year.
Happy Easter everyone.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Recipe Imperial Rice

Imperial Rice

Ingredients:

4 cups of rice
8 cups of chicken broth
2 packets of sazon goya with azafran
3 garlic cloves minced
1/2 an onion sliced
1 red pepper sliced
6 skinless boneless chicken breast cut into small/medium pieces
1 can of tomato sauce
salt and pepper
3 tbs of olive oil
deli ham
deli swiss cheese
1 can of sweet peas (optional)

In a pot cook the 4 cups of rice using 8 cups of chicken broth, add one packet of sazon goya with azafron, 1 tbs of olive oil and salt/pepper to taste.
Optional: add the can of sweet peas to the rice after its cooked

In a skillet put 2tbs of olive oil and throw in onions and peppers cook them for about 2 minutes, add the garlic and the chicken, then salt and pepper to taste.

Once the chicken is cooked through add can of tomato sauce and 1 packet of sazon goya.

Preheat over to 350 degress

In a large oven safe dish put half of the rice spread it out then add the chicken mix and spread it out and then the remainder of the rice.

Cover the rice with one layer deli ham, followed by a layer of swiss cheese, enough to cover the entire area, then put it in the oven until the cheese melts.

My family really enjoys this recipe.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Thankful Thursdays - Husband

I am a chicken when it comes to my kids or myself for that matter, getting hurt or being sick. Which makes me so thankful that my husband is a Doctor. For example: Last night while we were having dinner M fell forward and hit her chin with the table causing her to bite her tongue (hard!) and she bled a lot. I was a mess and there was no way I was going to look inside her mouth. Dr.D, ever so calmly, asked M to open her mouth inspected it, poured some sugar onto her tongue and told her to keep her mouth closed, end of story. He is my hero, never more so than when Mia was diagnosed in November with Moyamoya, he knew just what to do, he made all the right calls, got us an appointment with the top surgeon for Moyamoya in under a day, spoke to the doctors and asked all the right questions, he was so strong. I know that inside he was just as scared as I was, but one of us had to be brave in a moment where everything seemed to be falling apart. I am so thankful and proud of the husband that I have. I am truly blessed to be his wife.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays - Starbucks



I love Starbucks and I go almost daily, it was doomed to happen.
We now have another Starbucks lover in the house.....

*The drink M had didn't have coffee, it was the Double Chocolaty Chip Frappuccino Blended Creme.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

20 random things about me

1. I am a perfectionist and I always put a lot of pressure on myself.

2. I love to read just about anything.

3. I love watching romantic movies, my favorite is "The Notebook"

4. When I moved in with my husband I was working and he was studying, everyone I knew had something negative to say about it. I'm glad I didnt listen because it was the best decision I ever made and all our sacrifices have been worth it.

5. I complain about not going out alone and having "me" time, but I secretly rather spend time with my husband and kids, than doing anything else.

6. I love to cook, its like therapy for me.

7. Last year really changed my outlook on life and made me realize what really matters and what really doesnt.

8. I believe in the power of prayer.

9. Last summer I went to wholefoods everyday, I would walk there buy just what I needed for the day and then walk back home, it was great...

10. I really enjoy making things from scratch.

11. I love being a stay at home mom, even though I do admit that some days are harder than others.

12. I have to have the house neat and clean with everything in its place everyday by dinner time, even if it only last for about an hour.

13. I have dessert after every meal, including breakfast.

14. I am terrified of dogs.

15. I record the shows Desperate Housewives, Dancing with the Stars and Grey's Anatomy because I love to watch them, but I hate commercials.

16. I dont like eating out.

17. I have a great babysitter but I dont use her often enough.

18. I try to enjoy the simple things in life, for example: every smile, hug and I love you from my girls.

19. I feel so proud when I peek into my girls room and hear L reading a story to M.

20. I drink way too much coffee.

Monday, April 6, 2009

I have no control

I am really good about what I eat, I try to keep it healthy and stay aways from the "not so good for the figure food", that is with the exception of ice cream. I don't know what it is about ice cream, but once I take my first spoonful there is no going back and before I know it I have consumed the entire pint. I try not to have any at home because if its in the freezer I will eat it. I even reason with myself saying that I might as well just eat the entire pint and get it over with, because I know that I wont stop thinking about it until its gone. I just have zero control when it comes to ice cream. I happen to have ice cream in the freezer right now, I sat down to write this hoping that it would make me realize that I need to put a stop to my little addiction, that I would say "Ok Mrs.D, yes there is ice cream in the freezer, but you will not eat it". Unfortunately, the opposite has occurred and I am off to the freezer to finish my pint of "chocolate, chocolate almond ice cream".

*Yes, I am absolutely aware I have a problem, but it so good!!!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Egg hunt at the beach


We had a great day today, we went to an egg hunt at the beach. M was really excited to go and she didn't stop talking for the entire 45 minutes it took us to get there. We had to park three blocks away and walk because we couldn't find parking any closer. When we got to the boardwalk it was difficult to walk through the crowd of people, it was so full. We went to the area designated for the kids 0-4 and waited patiently (well as patiently as you can possibly wait with a 4 year old) for the egg hunt to begin. They announced the rules: due to such a high volume of people, every child was only allowed to pick up 3 eggs. Then at the count of three they let us through the yellow tape. M ran as fast as she could and picked out her 3 eggs in under a minute and then continued to run toward the ocean.

She loved the waves and ran toward them but I made sure to keep her out of the water because it was freezing cold.

Afterwards we walked on the boardwalk for a little while and then went back on the sand. Dr.D and M played in the sand, they made a sand car and then we all picked shells.

On our way back home we stopped for coffee and M fell asleep for the entire ride home. I considered it a successful Sunday.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Honestly is always the best policy

I have always been really annoyed at people who lie, for one there is never a good enough reason to lie and second sooner or later the truth always comes out, therefore the person lying ends up looking like an ass.
This morning I patiently waited for Dr.D ,while he ran in the treadmill, to have breakfast. When he finished running, he went into the kitchen poured himself coffee and served himself cake for breakfast. I was in the living room and I could hear him in the kitchen so I said "you are so mean I have been waiting for you to have breakfast and you go into the kitchen and selfishly have breakfast alone without thinking of waiting for me" to which he answered (this is funny because his mouth obviously full while he spoke) I'm only drinking coffee. Then of course I went into the kitchen and the fork and empty plate are in the sink and he says "oh that wasn't breakfast", hmmm (insert eye roll) right...



***He later apologized for lying and admitted it was a dumb thing to do, because a lie is a lie no matter how small.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Fashion Friday

Im participating in the salsa in china "Fashion Challenge Friday", so today I let M and L pick out what they each wanted to wear from head to toe. What did they choose? See you yourself:

M's choice


She also insisted on wearing a skirt under her dress, I have no clue why, she said she just had to wear it. Here is a picture of that:



L's choice


She looks so cute with her baby Sarah.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Awake all night

M had given up on naps a long time ago, amazingly she has been napping again for the past three days. It is awesome and I am really enjoying it, because of napping during the day she is waking up earlier than usual (6am versus 8am). I don't have a problem with it at all, I will take early wake up with nap rather than later wake up and no nap any day! Now coming to the funny part. Due to the fact that at 6am it is still dark outside M wakes up saying "I'm not tired I want to stay awake all night", of course we humor her and say "ok fine as long as your good and listen to mommy and papa you can stay up all night" and she is absolutely ecstatic. Mornings have been so much more pleasant during the last couple of days. As an added benefit, I am waking up earlier too, so I'm getting a lot more done in the morning. I really hope we keep this up!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Wordless Wednesdays - On call room

This is the room in which Dr.D attempts (keyword attempts) to sleep in, when he is on call overnight.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Yummy, Oven Baby Back Ribs

Last night I made oven baby back ribs with a new barbeque sauce "FunniBonz", they were absolutely delicious. My family loves baby back ribs and they are simple to make in the oven, the only drawback is that they take a pretty long time, but its worth it.

2 slabs of baby back ribs
About 8 tbs of the barbeque sauce of your choice
salt and pepper

Preheat your oven to 325 degrees. Rub salt, pepper and about 4 tbs of barbeque sauce onto the front and back of the ribs. Seal them in aluminum foil and let them bake for 2 hours.

After 2 hours remove the ribs, raise the oven temperature to 400 degrees, open the aluminum foil and add the remaining barbeque sauce.

Then put the ribs back into the oven leaving the foil open and bake for approximately 30 minutes.

Results: Melt in your mouth baby back ribs.

Monday, March 30, 2009

You get 86,400 a day

Last night I was watching TV with Dr.D and we saw Joel Osteen and he said something that really got me thinking. He was talking about the importance of not wasting away your days, everyday is a gift and we should redeem each of the 86,400 seconds we get in the day. I know that I don't do that at all, I spend a lot of time just thinking about my problems and I don't take time to enjoy each moment as what it is, a gift. Joel Osteen said that if the bank would deposit $86,400 into our account each morning with a catch, any money not spent at the end of the day would be taken out of the account, we would make sure to spend it entirely. If you think about it, the time we receive each day all 86,400 seconds, are also only ours for a day and when the day is over that time is gone, we don't get it back. I am going to try to make a conscious effort to spend my time wisely. Time is not something we can get back, when its gone, its gone.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Picture perfect spring


Photo by Dr.D, he is so much better at taking pictures than I am.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Exhausted Mommy, Happy Kids

For L's birthday yesterday we had a busy day. It all started in the morning, she woke up, took a bath, got dressed, ate breakfast and then Dr.D drove her to school (he got home from the night call just in time to drop her off at school, which she really enjoyed, especially since he surprised her with red roses). I got M and myself ready and when Dr.D returned home we all went to the grocery store to pick up cupcakes and juice boxes for L's class. We arrived at the school at 10:15 which is snack time and sang "Happy Birthday" to L with her class mates, she was really happy when she saw us and helped me pass out the cupcakes to all her friends, after that she came home with us. The next thing on our list was lunch at PF Chang's (her favorite restaurant, which is great because it happens to be my favorite too). Lunch was followed with taking her to the movies to see "Monsters versus Aliens". L and M really enjoyed the movie, they didn't stop talking about it all day, I thought it really was a cute movie, with a nice message. We went home after the movie and had some quiet time (that mommy really needed). At 4:00pm we headed to Chuck E. Cheese for a birthday party with 8 of her friends, she had a blast. By the time we got home I had the worst headache ever and I was completely exhausted, surprisingly (well maybe not that surprising) L and M were still running on full batteries. L opened up her presents and shared nicely with M (she is really a great big sister). Dr.D left to work at 7:30pm after having a very large cup of espresso and I put the girls to bed. It was an absolutely exhausting day but totally worth it.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Hard to believe it has been 7 years

I remember it vividly, it was four in the morning, I was 37 weeks pregnant and I really had to use the bathroom (for the 100Th time that night) but when I stood up I began to drip. Five hours later L was born and with that I became a mother for the first time.

That day seems like it was only yesterday but today my baby turns 7.
She was the sweetest baby always happy and calm.

As a toddler she was so funny always singing and dancing, she loved to play dress up.

As a preschooler it was so much fun to watch as she learned and explored the world around her.

On her first day of kindergarten she was so excited, she got dressed in her new cloth, put on the necklace with a laminated paper fish from school (that said what class she was supposed to go to), and headed to school with a huge smile on her face.

First grade has been great, she is now able to read me stories, tell me what time it is and give me the answer to "what is 200+300 off the top of her head (the funnest thing about that is seeing how much she enjoys being able to do it).

Everyday that passes by she grows and becomes more independent but to me she will always be my baby. I have enjoyed every single moment of L's life and I look forward to all there is to come in the future. I know that I will always be pleasantly surprised.
Happy Birthday L!!!

L on her 7Th Birthday.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Thankful Thursdays - 7 things

Today hasn't been a great day, heck it hasn't even been a good day, but that's when its most important to remember to count your blessings and see the glass half full instead of half empty.

I am thankful for:

*the home I live in

*the health of my family

*having food on the table

*the car I drive

*the smell of the rain

*the beauty of tulips

*my laptop with internet connection


Making this small list really improved my mood. When I take a moment to think about some of the good things in my life it makes the "bad" things seems really insignificant.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Monday, March 23, 2009

Passion for cooking

I truly enjoy cooking. Something about throwing a bunch of different ingredients into a pot and coming out with something that is tasty and smells good is really rewarding for me. Here is a recipe for scallops that I made for dinner tonight.

1 lb of baby scallops
6 mushrooms diced in big chunks
1 small onion sliced thick
3 cloves of garlic minced
3 tbs of lime juice
1/4 cup of white wine
2 tbs of olive oil

I don't measure these so throw them in according to your taste

fresh cilantro
garlic powder
paprika powder
salt
pepper

Heat the olive oil and throw in the garlic, mushrooms and onion cook for about 2 minutes. Add the baby scallops and cilantro. Season with garlic powder, paprika, salt and pepper. Add the lime juice and wine. Cook for a couple of minutes until the scallops are done. Serve over rice.

Voila yummy scallops for dinner.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Spring! Spring! Snow?

As you know I was really excited about Spring, so imagine my surprise when I woke up today on the "first day spring" and found snow on the ground.

Puzzling I know.....

I am always pleasantly surprised to see snow in November, happy as can be when it comes down in December. I even like snow in January and February, but snow after its officially spring is just wrong!

I think mother nature is playing tricks on me. She gave me a few blooms and teased me with beautiful warm weather and then when I least expected it threw down a dusting of snow.

I really hope this was just an early April Fools joke and that warm weather will soon follow, however no amount of snow can take away my spring fever.
Hooray for spring!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Thankful Thursdays - Mom




I admit that there are moments when my girls make me want to pull my hair out. Some days(especially when Dr.D is on call overnight and I have to deal with the girls all day without getting a break) I am completely overwhelmed with motherhood, but regardless of how hard any particular day is, becoming a mom was the best thing that has ever happened to me. My daughters are my biggest blessing. They make me see the world through a different glass. I am so thankful to God for giving me the gift of becoming a mom.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

First sign of Spring

Today was a beautiful day, the weather was really nice. I find that funny because if three years ago someone would have told me that I would call 55 degree weather nice I would have laughed in their face.

I grew up in south FL, which means that if the weather went below 70 I thought it was freezing, but after living in the north east for three years my perspective has really changed.

I really enjoy having four seasons, it makes me appreciate each one, however by the end of February I am really tired of Winter and I long for Spring. Which brings me to today, I went out for a walk with M and saw the first sign of Spring.


I was already happy today because of the weather finally being warm, but seeing that first tiny bloom really made my day. Only four days left until the official first day of Spring!!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Mommy interviews L















These answers were given by 6 year old L.


1. What is something Mom always says to you?
I love you

2. What makes Mom happy?
me behaving good

3. What makes Mom sad?
when we behave bad

4. How does your Mom make you laugh?
by telling me really funny jokes

5. What was your Mom like as a child?
really cute

6. How old is your Mom?
I don't know

7. How tall is your Mom?
really tall

8. What is Mom's favourite thing to do?
be with us

9. What does your Mom do when you're not around?
she is sad

10. If your Mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
for painting picture or singing

11. What is your Mom really good at?
cooking

12. What is your Mom not very good at?
nothing your good at everything

13. What does your Mom do for her job?
works at home

14. What is your mom's favourite food?
apples

15. What makes you proud of your Mom?
that you take really good care of us

16. If your Mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Sandy from Sponge Bob

17. What do you and your Mom do together?
group hug

18. How are you and your Mom the same?
our eyes and our hair

19. How are you and your Mom different?
your big and I am small

20. How do you know your Mom loves you?
because you hug me and tell me that you love me a lot

21. Where is your Mom's favourite place to go?
New York

Sunday, March 15, 2009

American Girl Place

I promised L that we would take her to the American Girl Place in NY, so that she could pick out her birthday present, since Dr.D starts the night float this week(meaning he will be working overnight and then sleeping during the day for 2 weeks straight) we decided to take her yesterday.

L was really excited when we told her to get ready because we were driving to NYC to buy her birthday present(2 weeks in advance). We arrived at the American Girl Place around 3pm. The store is huge and L and M were in Doll heaven.

Of course, M also wanted a doll and it was kind of difficult to be in that store and refuse to get her a doll, therefore she also got a doll. The girls both decided on the American Girl doll bitty baby, M chose the bitty baby with brown hair and L chose the bitty baby with black hair.

As soon as we got to the car I opened up the boxes and gave each girl their new dolls and then I told them to take good care of them and treat them like a real baby. L decided to name her baby Sara and M decided to name her baby Chloe Jasmine.

Its a pretty long drive home and about 30 minutes into our drive M began to cry.

Me: Whats wrong M?

M: I'm not going to be able to keep my baby!

Me: Why not?

M: Because you said I had to take care of her like a real baby! (more crying...)

Me: M that isn't a problem,why do you think you cant take care of her?

M: Because she is going to get hungry and I am not going to breastfeed her!!!

Me: (trying really hard not to laugh, which was really hard since Dr.D was laughing his head off) Sweetie you don't have to breastfeed her, you can just play with her and make sure she doesn't get lost.

M: Oh, ok that's good because breastfeeding is really disgusting to me!

Then she put the baby in front of her and said "Don't worry Chloe I can keep you forever. Gotta love the mind of a child!

It was a great day out and we ended the day by taking a picture of L and M in their PJ's with Sara and Chloe.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Headaches can ruin a day

As I mentioned before M has unilateral Moyamoya. After her surgery everything has been great with the exemption of a few bumps in the road.... Headaches!
She has had a total of 6 headaches since her surgery, with the last one happening this morning.

The headaches are not associated with Moyamoya and in a regular situation a headache is not something to worry about, but since M's situation is not a regular one, hearing her complain of a headache has the power to send me over the edge. I begin to panic and a million things begin to run through my head. I sit in front of her asking her to lift her hands, smile, squeeze my fingers and kick her feet up.
It is so stressful for me that after she feels better I need some Tylenol because my head is pounding.

I know that its something I have to learn to live with because the fact that she has Moyamoya is not going to go away. Everything that happens to her, no matter how small, will always seem like a big deal to me until proven otherwise. There is nothing worst than the helplessness I feel when I see my little girl feeling bad and there is nothing I can do to make her feel better.
As I sit here writing this M is playing, laughing, running around the house, just being herself and that gives me such a sense of relief.
I trust in God that she is going to be fine.




M feeling all better!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Greener by the minute

I have fallen in love with the idea of becoming a greener family for numerous reasons ranging from health to mother earth.

Here is a list of the top 5 things I have been doing.

1. I carry a tote to the supermarket instead of using plastic bags and when I do use plastic bags then I reuse them at home as trash bags.

2. I try to buy organic as much as possible, I love shopping at Wholefoods!

3. I have replaced my cleaning products with greener alternatives like
Seventh Generation and Method. ( I love the method candles)....

4. I am getting better at remembering to recycle.

5. I am encouraging my family to think green "reduce, reuse, recycle".

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I am not a Doctor

I don't know how it happens but it happens often, I start having a conversation with someone and somehow the subject about what my husband does for a living comes up and when I say he is a Doctor I get a medical question. Note I am not a Doctor and we already discussed that I am a SAHM and that before that I worked in as an office manager, nonetheless I hear a:

"my thyroid levels are high but my medication should control it, right?"
or a
"I keep feeling a pain in my knee after I work out, what could that be?"

Ummmmm.... hmmmmm..... ughhhhhh....how the heck should I know?

I guess they figure out by my blank stare that I have no idea what the answer to their question is and then the conversation steers away to something else, although sometimes in the worst case scenarios they proceed to ask me if I could ask my husband for them and that is simply awkward. I don't mind this kind of thing when it comes from friend's and family the thing is it usually isn't friends and family but practically complete strangers who ask me.

Maybe I should dedicate any spare time to reading the New England Journal of Medicine so that I could be better prepared for those moments, but be warned you should not take any medical advise coming from me.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Mommy Interviews M

M at 18 month


This is an interview that was sent to me on facebook, basically you ask your child questions about you and write down their answers. These answers were given by 4 year old M.

1. What is something Mom always says to you?
M please be polite

2. What makes Mom happy?
for me to be a baby

3. What makes Mom sad?
for her babies not to be with her

4. How does your Mom make you laugh?
by doing a silly face

5. What was your Mom like as a child?
I don't know

6. How old is your Mom?
I don't know

7. How tall is your Mom?
I don't know

8. What is Mom's favourite thing to do?
play

9. What does your Mom do when you're not around?
I don't know

10. If your Mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
I don't know for what

11. What is your Mom really good at?
cleaning up the whole house

12. What is your Mom not very good at?
swim in a pool

13. What does your Mom do for her job?
works at home

14. What is your mom's favourite food?
bagels because they are good for me

15. What makes you proud of your Mom?
watching TV with me

16. If your Mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Giselle from enchanted

17. What do you and your Mom do together?
Play

18. How are you and your Mom the same?
we are not the same because your hair is not the same color as my hair

19. How are you and your Mom different?
I don't know

20. How do you know your Mom loves you?
she gives me a bagel

21. Where is your Mom's favourite place to go?
on a date with papa


*M asked for a bagel shortly after the interview, which probably explains why there was more than one answer referring to bagels.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

MoyaMoya

The word Moyamoya is not a word I would have ever wanted to learn about. Its a disease and until November of last year it was something I didn't even know existed. Unfortunately, after a very stressing week of doctors appt and a MRI/MRA my 4 year old (at the moment 3) was diagnosed with Unilateral Moyamoya.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moyamoya_disease
Everything from November 20Th on feels like a blur I was a walking zombie and all I could focus on was getting her to the best doctor so that she could have the surgery that she needed. Everything moved along really quickly and even though I don't understand why this happened I feel we were blessed because we caught this before any damage was made. We traveled to Boston Children's Hospital to meet with Dr. Michael Scott who to me was an angel sent straight from God to us and on Dec 10Th 2009 M had brain surgery. I cant think about that day without getting teary because it is by far the last thing any parent wants to go through but everything came out perfectly, her recooperation was really fast and we where back home 4 days later. Today is exactly 3 month after the surgery and everything is great.
M truly is my inspiration, she is so brave and strong and I feel blessed to be her mommy.

Monday, March 9, 2009

More responsibilities for free....Yay....Not!

I think its quite funny that my husband is the king of the responsibilities.
As a third year resident he doesn't really have his own patients he is in training and he looks after other doctors patients but he takes all of them to heart he checks them out on the computer from home he calls into the hospital to give orders even when he is signed out and the care of the patient is in the hands of the on call resident.
A while ago he called to inform me that he would be taking over the position of chief resident for 2 weeks while the chief resident was on vacation and I though well that's a lot of responsibilities but at least he wont have to be on call or on jeopardy, phew!!!(because you know the chief resident isn't on call) but nope, boy was I wrong he actually will be on call and on jeopardy and doing his regular job he is just going to add on all the chief resident responsibilities on top! Because you know he is so responsible (insert eye roll right here).
I wish he took the same approach to our home life.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

"happiness is a journey not a destination"

My husband gave me a card a few weeks ago with the quote "Happiness is a journey not a destination" and it really hit me. For as long as I can remember I have been waiting for something to happen before I can be happy...you know truly happy I always think if only this or that would happen then I would be happy. The main problem with me thinking that way is that its an illusion, there is no way that happiness will come and stay after you complete all your to do's. Instead happiness comes in small doses everyday and to truly be happy you have to learn to acknolodge those moments and enjoy them. Its easier said than done, but I am definately working on it.